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Back to current News

19.09.2006

Web blog entry number thirty.

This is just a belly update. Todays news is, ITS STILL GROWING! And moving, a lot.

My belly is taking the strangest shapes, this baby has really put himself in the front of my belly so you can see all his movements very clearly. Even Freya thinks its funny, she is "bumsing" my belly, holding it with both hands, laying her head against it and giving kisses. If I wouldn't know any better I'd almost suspect she knows her baby brother is inside :)

16.09.2006

Web blog entry number twenty-nine.

Last weekend ( 8/9 Sep '06 ) Opa and Oma came over from the Netherlands and stayed the whole weekend, they brought with them a beautiful antique kitchen closet which looks wonderful in our kitchen. Don't know how to use all the space yet, but no worries, I will find things to put in it...

We went for a walk, the weather was beautiful and we decided to see some of our new surroundings. More pictures of those surroundings you can find in the Photo Gallery, the new pictures section.

I am looking forward to the coming week eventhough it will be a busy one, we will have a meeting at the speech centre and we will find out if these people think they can do something for Freya, if not then our Kinderarzt has another place waiting in line ;)Also früforderung will start, I got a phonecall from a therapist, I suppose that is what they are, and he will come next week also.

Freya is taking giant leaps forward, she cries when she doesn't want something or like something, too now. Quite a difference! And she is crawling more, trying to climb onto everything. Yes, she is turning into a genuine little rascal, how wonderful! Bet you don't hear many parents being happy over rascalness and crying, but well, we are a special case :)

7.09.2006

Web blog entry number twenty-eight.

I had an appointment with the gynecologist today. Everything ok, she thinks the baby is lying head down now, but I told her, he is turning around a lot still. Would be a good thing if he'd stay head down though, that will give me more chances to give birth naturally.

We have spoken with the doctor at the hospital now. It was very comforting to speak with him

We have not made any permanent birth plan yet, we have just discussed the options and currently they are as follows, a) Baby has head down and I go into spontanious delivery before the due date, baby can come naturally, b) Baby has the head up, cesarean, c)Baby is in the right position, but is not planning on coming anytime soon, birth will be induced.

Now this last option is one I will definatly NOT go for, it reminds me too much of what happened with Freya and I am not willing to risk this happening a second time, eventhough the doctor ensured me that they would be on top of things at all times and that something like what happened during Freya's birth would not even be thinkable in their clinic. So option c would be a cesarean too. We have agreed to meet the doctor again the 28th of September to make a birth plan as most things should be more clear by then. Like for example the baby's size and what position he is in at that time etc.

Freya is a lot on my mind, to test or not to test seems to be the question, I don't know. I don't really like this diagnostic aproach very much. Sure if there would be a real indication she would have some syndrome we'd ofcourse need to know. But most doctors and doctor asssistents and...none of them think she is a syndrome child except for one doctor. I prefer to focus on how we can help Freya develop to her full potential rather then first, through all kinds of tests of which most are probably unnecessary, find out what the actual problem is. The truth is that no test might be conclusive, we might never know, but what we do know is that she has develpomental problems, and we can help.

17.08.2006

Web blog entry number twenty-seven.

So meanwhile we have visited the spz-evk. Here we had a meeting with Dr.Med. Johannes Buckard, we still don't know anything about Freya's situation, but she is making progress, be it slow, she is growing and so is her head. Dr.Med. J. Buckard is now thinking that asphyxia only isn't enough to explain Freya's difficulties and we will have her tested for chromosomal abnormalities. I can't say I am totally convinced she fits to any specifc syndrome yet, though she shares some symptomes with some conditions, but to be honest that applies to brain damage cases too...Anyway, maybe it is better to rule out certain things so that we can either concentrate on different areas or then start treatment for the specific syndrome, which in some cases you can't start soon enough. I just hate all these tests, sometimes I feel it would be better to stop tests all together and concentrate on helping Freya develop, get all the therapies possible to stimulate motor skills and speech.

My new gynecologist is great, she immediatly did a load of tests, including PAP, which she checked under a microscope herself, we had a CTG ( cardiotocography ), blood tests, and an ultra sound. We discussed a great deal of things, also how to deal with the upcoming birth, c-section versus natural etc. She told me that as long as the baby is turned head up, they will do a c-section here regardless of any other problematics there might be.

We have an interview with the doctor that will be there at birth and he will advice us which option we should go for this time. Current position of the baby is head up and I am in week 31 of the pregnancy now.
Here are some pictures for you, compare my stomach while pregnant with Freya to this pregancy :)

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11.08.2006

Web blog entry number twenty-six.

I am about 30 weeks pregnant now, still 8 to go if we will have the ceasarian, this is all of a sudden not such a sure thing anymore because the very doctor that adviced us to go for a c-section is also the one saying that my uterus healed very well from the last operation, that there are no thin areas around the scar and that the baby is growing very well and is of avarage size and weight. When we were at the pränatal clinic thursday 3 august the doctor said that the baby's weight was 1206g, which is about avarage. She said we should discuss our options with the doctor in the hospital where I will deliver this baby. This last visit was to check on the baby, to see if he had grown out of proportion due to my gestational diabetes or if any other problems had occured, developmental problems in vital organs, but everything was perfect. We also got some new pictures. Not on cd this time, I forgot to ask. But here is my try to digitalize the best pictures.

Baby is kicking a lot, sometimes so much and so hard that he keeps me awake at night, either him or Freya, she has started this habit of waking up between 24:00 and 01:00 and then subsequently staying awake until 2:00 atleast. My guess is that its her nightmares. She seems to have them an awfull lot, always had, she "cried" the first times in her life in her sleep. It breaks my heart, one has to wonder what do babies dream about? I guess she has enough nightmare material to dream about though...

So, the house is finally starting to feel more like a home, stuff and furniture have started to find their proper places, we still need a lot of things, but we are in no hurry, we make do with what we have and don't buy anything new until we are sure that it is exactly what we never knew we always wanted.

Next week will be busy, I will have a lot of doctors visits, one with the hause doctor ( I cut my thumb and needed stitches, and those need to be removed ). A check up at the diabetes clinic, fysiotherapy with Freya, a visit to my ( new ) gynecologist and a visit to the special centre with Freya.